i wish i had the creative bone

my mind is ever changing like an ocean

Sometimes I just know better than other people….

I love doing for myself, no one can tell me no. I’m 19 and I feel pretty established regarding what I’m doing. I’m thankful more than anyone knows. I thank you God. You’re the one doing all this.

I do this

Meowww

Beautiful morning, warm air in the car and the sun shining bright..music thumpin. ~~~

Chocolate milk = ADDICTION

R.I.P to the girl you used to be…her days are over, she’s over. Ah ah I’m ready for ya.

All I see is strange clouds

Well. I can’t wait to get out of the situation I’m in now, words always seem to get twisted & the truth ends up missin. I’m done with the typical jobs - ill be moving on to better things real soon. God just help see me thru. You’re the only one I can count on with trouble strikes.

so. eight and a half years of headaches have turned out to be an enlarged vein in my head. i will be having surgery to get it removed…next week probably. My 19th birthday is Wednesday. what the fuck kind of timing. 

what a day. i dont think ill ever have another second day like that one. actually, hell no i know i wont. God, im guessing this was you. You saw how low and confused i was. i wanted to die, truthfully i wanted you to erase me from the world. You sent me to Melissa.. She’s a good woman. Help me feel comfortable around her & comfortable with myself. i wish i knew what you thought of me smoking, i would do whatever you wanted me to. every time i look at my tattoo i say the verse in my head. It reminds me that i’m truly on a path that you’ve designed for me particularly and no one else. It amazes me when I really put things in perspective. God i don’t know how to pick apart these things inside of me. Guide me to someone who can. Make the hallucinations stop, it makes me feel more ridiculous. All these medicines and whatnot don’t make me feel like a hot shot either…. let me make better of this life that i have. let this be the right thing for me. Forgive me Father, for i have sinned.